How Gays Hide Their Homosexuality
By Andy Heath
The Christian Bible talks about Paul in the New Testament (at first he was Saul) who went about killing Christians because that was his job. He persecuted them and made them suffer. But then one day he saw the light (yes, pun intended) on his way to Damascus (Acts 9) and became temporarily blind after which time he began serving the Christian God.
I often wonder why God chose Paul. You see, he was not some sort of great hero to Christians; in fact, they feared him because he hunted them religiously (pardon the pun). I mean, Paul was as mean a person to the Christians as anyone could be. Why Paul? Why was Paul to become a great man in the Christian faith? I believe the reason Paul was to become a great Christian is because he was always a great Christian and simply chose to hide that aspect of himself or at least deny it.
Once Paul saw the light, he realized who he was and was willing to accept it. So from then on he became for the first time that person who he had really been all along. Yes, I know I that's confusing, but let's talk about it.
Paul was born a great Christian, but he did not want to admit it. Christians were not well liked at the time, so he separated himself from them. He hunted them down and persecuted them. And yes, he killed them, all to deny who he really was. He was using the persecution of Christians to hide or deny this aspect of himself. See where I'm going with this?
If you don't see where I'm going with this, let me present the parallel here. Gays also hide who they are by trying to become the opposite. I remember when I was in high school, I was a devout Christian. I attended services every Sunday and sang in the church choir. I made jokes about gay people and talked badly about them and thought about how awful they were simply because I did not want anyone to know or even to admit to myself that I was one of them. This is a common occurrence. You will find that many people that claim to hate gay people are often themselves gay - especially if they're neurotic about it.
I felt bad for a long time about pretending to be something that I was not - pretending to be straight when I was actually gay. I also felt bad for misleading people in my life, but I always felt that it was the only way I could preserve myself. You see, I grew up in a highly religious and conservative town in Tennessee, and I honestly believe that if I had come out of the closet at that time, my classmates would have killed me. It's true.
If you think people that say they're not gay but take up for gay people are actually hiding their homosexuality, you will be wrong 99% of the time. As I said, the ones that are trying to hide their homosexuality are the ones that constantly make jokes about gays and talk about the sin of homosexuality. That is how gays hide their homosexuality just as the Apostle Paul hid his Christianity.
